This time of year there’s a tendency to feel pressured into renewing yourself, or kicking off the year right. And I’m here to tell you a secret today.
You don’t have to do anything. Not a single thing.
We tend to put too much pressure on ourselves and try to do it in a way too short a time span.
The last week or so before new year, I just disconnected from work and from writing and publishing, because I truly just needed it. Yes, I had to fight myself a lot to let myself relax. And recharge.
I came across this great text about what does rest mean, during my break. And I need to re-read it. Especially now, while we’re still in a pandemic, resting is more important than ever, because recovering if you get sick will be vital. Please don’t push yourself too hard.
I know, you might be in survival mode, but I have another secret for you: you can still rest. You might have to plan it, and make it part of your survival plan, or do it in defiance of whatever is weighing you down. But I promise you, you can. Even if it’s just a small small ritual before you go to bed, and a tiny ritual when you get up.
Welcome to 2023, time to practice to write the year right for the rest of the year. Take care of yourself and each other.
I want to pretend like I usually don’t do it, but I think the problem is I do it all year around: Trying to do all the things.
So new year came around, and I have so many plans, so much I want to get done this year. And this month I’m doing a course that’s taking a lot of my brain power, and yet I still want to try to do ALL THE OTHER things at the same time.
I need to allow myself space to just focus on the course I’m taking. Focus on the reflection that will come after each session. It’s an Anti-racist Classroom, and there’s so much that boils up to the surface after each session, much more than I expected. Yet I want to keep writing, but I am writing the reflections, and I forget. So I try to keep doing the normal writing, like this but I guess this is different because it’s on my mind.
I want to start a newsletter, more news on that some later time, but the response thus far is good. It wont be published more often than every two weeks, but also it may be published more seldom, because I am really bad at doing things on a schedule for extended periods of time.
What would that newsletter be about? Everything probably. A little bit of this and a little bit of that. But a focus on adhd / autism, and disability and queer stuff. Because even though I live with a partner of the opposite sex, I am still queer as fuck.
Anyways, I need to calm myself down and not try to do 50 other things in January than I already am doing. See you in February hopefully.